How to find a wife? and how to know when it's time?

[RelativeNewman]

Hi,

Sometimes I feel that warm in my body. The masculine drive to have a wife, and experience that physical closeness.

But I want to always remind myself that I shouldn't put my sexuality above god, or the marriage will fail sooner or later.

That's why I believe that chastity is very important to build a strong marriage foundation.
And the reason why I've had to reject girls i find attractive(difficult) that don't value chastity and could make me fall into sexual immorality.

And I'm still a virgin, and hope to still save myself for marriage. Although I've been tempted in many instances, my guardian angel have helped me to escape.. thank god.

The women in my life, both older and younger (family/friends) have told me that I'm attractive and I'll be a good husband (based on the potential they see in me). I'm not in any sense perfect, and I always try to be honest and conscious of my mistakes, and people seem to appreciate it.

Still, I won't consider my competence and character as developed. Because girls that are actually more mature and more "Wife Material" aren't interested in me.

I'm 22YO. Introvert. I work as a freelancer online, so I can get away with not going outside my house often, other than going to church in Sundays. I believe I can take a girl out to spend a wholesome morning or evening, you know, eat something, talk, share knowledge, and healthy play.

I invited a girl (right now it's platonic) to mass next Sunday. I plan on eating something after, and just spend time being present.


My options are
1. keep working and make lots of money
2. expose myself in social environments that are healthy, discreet, prudent, with a sense of decency.
3. i dont know how to frame it, but maybe learn to socialize and learn secure body language
4. Attractive women intimidate me ppfffff, so i'll try to expose myself to speaking casually to strangers on the street to lose my fear of rejection gradually

Is there some quick recommendations or applicable steps today, based on the Christian tradition, liturgy, etc. That teaches how to behave like a young man of god, to build a family, and choosing and attracting the love of your life, mother of your children.

God have mercy on me,
- RelativeNewman